Some nights, I wonder if I’m truly happy. Some nights, I look at the clock and wonder, how did awake at 3am become normal? When did sleeping at 1am become a blessing? Some nights my hands hurt so much from all the drawing; some mornings I’m greeting my fourth sunrise in a row and raising it a coffee toast (sixth cup for the night). Some nights I’m so exhausted I just drop down onto the bed to sleep, even if it means hell to pay and more work the next day.
Some nights, I wonder if I’m truly happy, and then I look at the art on my walls, the plans I just drafted; I think about every significant building I’ve visited and how my course has so drastically changed my perception of it, and I decide, yes, I am happy. Because every late night, every hour spent drafting, every lecture I sit through, means I learn more about a world - about a perspective, about a life - I never would have found if I wasn’t in this course. I see more now, I see differently, and it’s all because of this. A building isn’t just a building anymore; it’s a collection of carefully planned and thought-out spaces following a strict set of laws, meticulously detailed and arranged. Place has a whole different meaning now that I’m an architecture student, and personal space besides. I’ve a whole new level of respect for this profession, and anyone who says don’t you guys just draw? will get decked in the face.
Some nights I wonder if it’s all really worth it, and then I look at the art on my walls and the plans I just drafted and I think, fuck yes. For every piece of work I do, there is improvement of my skills, an addition to the knowledge I’m gaining semester after semester, year after year. It may be tiring, it may be stressful, it may be hell on my body but it’s an endless number of learning opportunities and information banks for my mind. So yes, I’m tired, but I’m fucking happy and that’s what makes it worth it. That’s what makes drafting every plan, attending every evening class, writing every paper, worth it.
Cheers, UP Arki, and every architectural course and school besides. I may bitch about you often but I’ll never regret choosing this.